Ex Mente Mea

Abraham, ARod and Harry….

My beautiful princess Kitty and my beautiful Faye…

We apologized and they still talking sh*t? Here’s a thought, “what you gonna do about it b*tches!” Shut the f*ck up, stop acting up!

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“U.S. Navy plane strays into Venezuela”

The U.S. regrets any “accidental infringement” of Venezuelan airspace by a U.S. plane over the weekend, the State Department said Monday, but a Venezuelan official called the breach intentional.

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As I understand it sekou mau mau’s mom is ill, my prayers and wishes for a full recovery for his mom go out to him and his family. Having had my mom recently ill, and her life threatened I totally empathize with sekou, and I sincerely wish his family all the best.

When I was told he wasn’t coming I felt a sense of disappointment mixed with a sense of calm. I wanted to get this thing overwith, it was like a self imposed burden on my shoulders, and I wanted to get it done regardless of the outcome, I simply wanted to do the thing and move on. And just like that, the promoter calls me in the office, he says sekou called and he aint coming, and that was that, it was over. Funny thing, at the time, I was looking for toilet paper! They were recording this on camera and all I said was “dude, whatever, right now I just need toilet paper” I really needed to drop a load.

When he told me what was going on I felt bad for this dude, I understood and related to him, and I only hope the family will be ok. At the end of the day our family is all we have. They are who we work hard for, who we sweat for, and who we live for. Sekou, all the best brother.

With peter’s words the burden of the evening was lifted, and I shifted into reporter mode. I mingled around with the other writers, NYpost, nycfight.com, full contact fighter, nypress. I saw some guys from the various schools and said what’s up and so on.

From my end my cuz jay came through, Donna and Danielle from the office, faye and Jesus came by. Harry and china came through, Harry was on as camera man. My lifelong bully older younger brother from another mother Sammy came from PA and showed his tender love and affection as he is known to do. And of course my princess kitty came in. Unfortunately they didn’t get to see me perform, but they got to enjoy a good show nonetheless.

I extend a big thank you to all these guys for coming in and supporting me. I told them next show that I compete in they get in free as the reason they came at all was not fulfilled.

I will continue dieting and training towards improved health, fitness, and to keep improving my MMA skills I’ll continue training in Martial arts of some form. I haven’t decided where or with whom I will train to keep advancing my skills though. I’m debating if I should continue in a school or continue training with Richie or peter. We’ll see.

I have other priorities, so cost will play a role in what I decide. I’d like to train tops 2 days a week, then the rest of the time I will continue weight lifting and doing cardio to get the rest of my weight under control. I may put this fighting thing off for awhile, or altogether. Simply I am not training as much or as hard as the guys that are competing today. I am not at their level of training and this puts me at a great disadvantage in a competitive fight, not to mention i’m not a spring chicken anymore.

Work, life, old age, and responsibilities make it hard for me. No excuses, as you see I went to fight, and I prepared for it. But to compete today you need to do and give more than I can in my current situation.

We see what happens. In any case that’s all I got. I expect a long day of work today. Check in a few days for my article at www.savevaletudo.com on the show. It was a good one.

Do you get nervous before a fight?  I do.  I asked a few fighters on their take..

Andrew Montanez - First opponent, and advice giver…   Fighting is fun.  Stay calm and clear and always look for the finish.  In the gym when sparring, you see things clearer because you are calm.  Do the same in the fight and you will perform better…

Jose Torres - Coworker, friend, and part time boxing coach..  The nerves are a switch, they tell you it’s time to do what you need to do.. 

George St. Pierre - Uhm, you know who he is… The nerves help me prepare, I train harder because I’m nervous…  Without the nerves I wouldn’t push myself so hard and I might not do so well……..

Sam DelRosario - Lifelong friend… I feel almost like my body is going numb, I love it…  The adrenaline, the rush.. 

Cus D’amato - Here is the difference between a coward and a hero..  A hero and a coward feel the same way about this situation, or other situations..  The coward runs, the hero stays and fight…  It’s what they do that makes them different, not how they feel..  As quoted by Iron Mike Tyson….

That being said, I find myself doubting myself at times during the day, but I know I have put the work in, I have prepared..  My opponent is bigger and stronger than me…   Skill levels are unknown, but, I know this..  I put in my work…  I did my part..  I must have confidence that my efforts were good and they shall lead the way to my victory…

Hooorrahhh…..